Sometimes I’ll look at L and have a flash of what life could be like as a stay-at-home-mom. We could go out for a walk in the crisp, fall morning air. I’d sit and have a cup of coffee while she played happily on the floor. I would be happy, relaxed, unscheduled.
Or would I?
The “grass is always greener” syndrome can be quite dangerous. What if I had made the decision to stay home? What if the novelty had worn off? What if I felt isolated, lonely, starved for adult interaction, and regretful that I had sacrificed my career?
I imagine the answer lies somewhere in the middle.
Some moms can pick one or the other and confidently say “I wouldn’t have it any other way!” For me, coming back to work has meant a roller-coaster of emotions.
I applied for a promotion a few weeks ago, and today I was offered the position.
In some ways, it seems counter-intuitive to strive for more responsibility when I’m struggling with being a working mom in the first place. Yes, it will mean extended hours sometimes (on occasion, not all the time) and some travel (rarely), but at the end of the day, it seems to make those hours away from L more worth it if I’m doing something that I’m proud of, something that challenges me.
I’m filled with excitement and nerves as I take on this new role. I’m thankful for my friends and family who are always there to encourage me. I’m thankful for L’s smiling face at the end of each day. And I’m thankful for JD, who is forever and always, my biggest cheerleader.